Hi guys, sorry for venting, but I feel like I need to.
If you feel like i'm trying to get some atention, or being to depressive, you might as well un-observe me, I won't be too mad, but I don't want you, guys, to get uncomfortable with me, and I'll be writing things like this for a while from now.

So where to put it? Things in my family aren't too well again, I'm trying to hide from them all, to be as little visible, as it's only possible. I don't want to get my mom's atention, because I know how it might end up. I'm afraid she'll grab my wrist again and will be pulling me around again. It seems nothing, but she uses enough strenght to make my hand hurt. And i'm trying to not make her angry. Yesterday i'll almost failed, because I said I don't feel like a girl, and I never asked to be born…
I have problem with gender identity since I was little, I always had that feeling, that i'm in wrong body… Yeah, well.
I'm feeling like I need to suffocate myself on my own emotions, because aparently "Crying is for kids". What's the point of sending me to therapy if I don't even get to cry, when I want to. Neither feel happy, or angry. I can't tell ANYONE about my feelings anyway, because if any therapist would tell her what i told them, she would make piss out of nothing! I'm just… tired…
And my dad, commenting on my body, laughing of fluidity of my gender… I'm scared of him, I have enough of everyone and the worst part is… I have no safe adult to turn to. It's like nobody cares. Each time I tried to get help, they belittled my problems… whatever… my meds stopped working and I feel like sh!t again… Take care of yourselfs, flowers 🏵️💮🌼

~ Klondie

… Osoba, którą wcześniej pozytywnie wspominałem, w ostatnim czasie bardzo mnie skrzywdziła, zatem, przepraszam jeżeli będę mniej aktywny. Po prostu czuję się z powodu tej osoby bardzo źle, bo po pewnym czasie okazało się że w ogóle jej na mnie prawdopodobnie nie zależało i poraz kolejny byłem zbyt naiwny. Nie mam siły na nic, ale nie chcę, żeby przeniosło się to na kogoś z was, zatem zamiast wyjaśniać co dokładnie się stało, postanowiłem, że jednak lepiej będzie się uspokoić. Od wczoraj czuję się gorzej… Ale może się poprawi. Trzymajcie się tam kwiatuchy, przepraszam Was 🌸🏵️🌼

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